Tuesday, July 3, 2007

preaching

preaching in bethel baptist church last sunday was... not very good.

i felt better about my first time preaching at seremban efc about 3 months ago. i'm not sure if it was actually qualitatively better; just that it felt better. i think that's because it was my first time preaching - psychologically, there was a sense of taking the leap of faith, stepping into new uncharted territory, breaking out of my comfort zone and overcoming my fears victoriously (or nervously).

i added the word 'nervously' in brackets because i got the recording of that first preaching and listened to it, and i sound incredibly nervous. rather like a small boy who's been caught for doing something wrong. and i kept on saying 'err, yeah'; a nervous vocal tic that i have to watch out for in future.

anyhow, there was a sense of euphoria and victory after that first time preaching; like, 'yeah! i did it! i preached my first sermon! woohoo!!!'

i was actually less nervous this time 'round; however, i felt worse after the event. the message seemed so much better when i was preparing it! i guess that, with this second-time preaching, i am no longer have the position of 'mr. first-time preacher' to buoy and support me; now, i am merely a young, inexperienced, rather unskilful preacher. what a letdown.

this preaching thing is difficult!. i bet some of you readers have thought to yourselves before, 'hah! i could be a pastor; it's so easy! just talk for half-an-hour to forty-five minutes once a week. no problem!' well, fyi, the pastor has A LOT of other duties apart from preaching on sunday; and even the preaching part of it isn't as easy as it looks!

this passage from the introduction of F.B. Creddock's book 'Preaching', sums up where i am now: "...learning to preach is difficult, and the difficulty is not greatly relieved by having a skilled instructor or by the discovery that one seems to be naturally a 'good talker'. the fact is, preaching itself is a very complex activity...". sighz...

please pray for and with me as i strive to learn and grow in this area. i trust that, by God's grace, even i can learn to preach... and preach well.

4 comments:

Charis said...

Congrats. :-) I've given a homily and a talk on (Methodist) church history. All I can say is I see why people are required to have some serious theological education before they're allowed in the pulpit...all the best!

tabbydlim said...

oo yes! must agree with u on how it's hard being a preacher. my dad used to tell me being a pastor wasn't as easy as it seems, especially the first few preaching moments. =)

will be jotting u dwn in my prayer book. all the best! i'm sure u're doing fine as it is..:) C ya.

irene said...

Aiyo kesian. Still, as it's your 'feeling', maybe not so accurate, eh? ;)

I'm sure you'll get better over time... as Mom loves to say, "Practice makes perfect"! hehe

siehjin said...

charis: thanks for your empathy and support. =)

tabby: thanks for your prayers! i really covet them =)

sis: yeah... hopefully, it only gets better from here on... =P