do u know why today is very happening? it is so because there are SO MANY THINGS happening today:
1. Emmy and Sherman's Wedding @ STM
2. The Wife's MUET Invigilation
3. PPBC Youth's Orphanage Visit
4. iBridge Camp Reunion @ IKEA
5. dNA planning meeting
6. Trip back to sitiawan
woo hoo! isn't my life exciting? i get to miss so much stuff! =)
of this list, the highest in priority are the last two. i was supposed to go back to sitiawan yesterday to help my mum pack. cos we're carting lotsa stuff from there to our new place in seremban - stuff like washing machine, fridge, dining table, and much much more. my mum is there alone, and i feel bad because i can't be there to help her. my dad isn't happy about it either. he's worried cos he knows that it can be a very emotionally charged and draining process.
the problem is, i have a dNa planning meeting today. at 10.30 am. and i can't get out of it because this date was set long long ago. to further complicate matters, the camp is a cooperative joint effort between SU and FES. so if i were irresponsible enough to skip the meeting, it would affect inter-organisational relationships negatively.
i feel pulled in two directions. but i've tried my best to solve it by negotiating to leave early from the meeting so that i can scoot off to sitiawan. it may not please everyone, but it's the best i can do.
as i thought about this conundrum last night, i realised that i tend to crave approval and recognition from my parents, The Wife, my colleagues, and most of all from God. and if the last is not the greatest by far, this may be dangerous. i do not want to be a mere people-pleaser. this is something i have to watch out for in future.
this sounds rather strange coming from me. i'm supposed to be (or used to be) the devil-may-care guy, who does whatever he thinks is right and lets whoever disagrees go hang. i guess my prayers for greater sensitivity and consideration towards others have had their effect after all. now i just have to make sure a happy balance is struck. =)